18th Birthday.
happiness and sadness.
i love him. yes i do. i was happy, very happy indeed. he was my prince, my life and my everything. i don’t know how life will be without him. i just love him so much. <3
but life has been so awful. awful in the sense that he can’t return back the feeling. he said he love me. but i don’t know if it’s true. BUT. he’s changing. i don’t know him anymore. i can’t understand him anymore. is love still alive? i don’t know. i don’t know anything anymore.
i still love him. despite all the hurt he have caused. i know he didn’t mean it. did he?
but gawd! why is he like that? why is he changing? have i done something wrong? what is it? can somebody please tell me? i did my best. but i guess my best wasn’t the best for him.
i gave him everything. everything he never asked for. but i gave it to him without asking anything in return. just love. pure and true love. but he can’t love me. he love someone else i guess. was i that blind to not to notice it? T.T
what will i do now? let go? no i can’t. but i should. i’m giving you your freedom. you should be happy now. you should. thanks for everything. really thanks.
can i live without the happiness? can i live with sadness? i don’t know. i don’t know. T.T
cause now, crying has been my habit. T.T
